I want to thank you guys for such warm and caring words. I think Maggie hit the nail on the head and I'm sorry you also have the same kind of "mom" in your life. Hayley, I'm so happy you don't, and I know Ashley will have a mom just like yours :) Matt, your words were touching and I appreciate them. The falling out you may have felt in the past was me going through stuff and shutting down a bit...nothing personal. I'm back and will not go there again. I'm so happy to back blogging and it's great to actually "talk" to you guys. I posted those last emails as just a taste of what life has been like and why I've made the decision I've made. Emails in the past have been a lot worse, but those were to long to put out there and to painful. Plus, these were the ones that just ended everything. I'm blessed to have a strong support system around me and that is what helps in making the decisions I make. Like you said Maggie, it would be nice to have that wonderful mother-daughter relationship like so many have, but that is not our reality and will never be. It is what it is and as long as I have love all around me, that is all I need. Our "moms" are the ones who are missing out, by choice.
Yesterday I took Ashley, two of her friends, my niece and Justin's girlfriend to Marine World (Discovery Kingdom) and we met up with my long time friend and her two boys, and also my brother and his family. We had the best time ever!! Everyone got along, everyone had a blast and everyone is wiped out!! The weather was perfect and the lines for the rides were not long at all. What a perfect fun-filled day :)
Today I'm going to pick up my aunt from the airport and taking her to grandpas. She is going through the same thing with my "mom"...getting a lashing for stupid stuff that does not even concern her! We share and laugh about it now. I can't wait to see grandpa but I'm not looking forward to driving that drive again! Oh well, it's what you do for family :)
Thank you again guys. I'm so happy to have you as a part of my life!