and hoping it stays that way :)
After texting/calling my son all weekend, he finally text back yesterday and came over to watch fireworks with us last night. Things have smoothed over, and I couldn't be happier. I finally talked to my hubby about everything that has been going on in my head, and of course the first question was, "why didn't you come talk to me about this before?" My answer was that he has so much stuff going on in his own life/brain right now, that I didn't want to put more on him. Of course he told me that no matter what is going on with him, he will always have room for my stuff too :) I talked to him about all the worries I'm feeling and about what Justin did. He listened, held me, and gave me his opinions. One of those opinions was hard to hear, even though I know he was right. He said that yes Justin was 100% wrong, but I also was wrong for getting so involved in his and Gerianna's personal business. I need to stop mothering him so much and let him learn on his own. If I continue being in the middle, he may resent me and then never come talk to me or be around, or worse yet, if by chance they brake up he could blame me for it in some way. It hurt to hear, but I know he is right. This is just another chapter in my life that I am figuring out as I go, and I am so thankful that I have someone who can show me the other side of things and help guide me along with me. So all seems to be much better in that department :)
I went and saw my dad this weekend and had a very nice time. I am happy to say that I got more of the story and feel much better about his health now. When I talked to him on the phone and he told me about losing so much weight and the doctor setting him up an appointment for a full body scan, those two combinations of course made it sound horrible! Reality is, the weight loss has happened over a years time and after talking about how he eats, I realize that the lack of food is most likely the reason for the weight loss. I'm still glad he's getting the scan, for precaution if for nothing else. I told him I was worried sick and he better start eating right....for me if nothing else.
So, we're starting off on a good note so far this week, and I hope it continues!