After such a horrific week, I think the fire is smoldering out and I couldn't be happier about that!
Over the weekend fights broke out between Ash and Daddy again, but this time it was not at all pretty and not at all good. Ash finally just broke to pieces, cried for hours (which she hasn't done since the break-up) and just let everything out...anger, hurt, guilt, and pain. I watched over her all night because she was saying how she just wanted to not be here anymore, and the far away look in her eyes told me to be cautious with this. I kept telling her yes life sucks right now, but I promise it will get better. You are at the bottom, and the only place left to go is up.
Next day she stayed in her room for most of the day, and I told her she needs to apologize to her father for saying such hurtful things. I have never seen him so broken hearted and it tore me apart! I told her that he is not Cliff and would NEVER be Cliff. She lashed out at her daddy because she couldn't do it to the one it was meant for. I don't know if hubby understands that it wasn't at him, but when she finally did come out and apologized, they were tight as ever and that just made me so damn happy!
On top of all this, I got sick. My body doesn't take this kind of stress very well. I bottle stuff up, but my body has a way of getting it out one way or the other. I'm finally getting over the hump and then all will be whole once again :)
Life sometimes sucks, but with friends and family who love you, it doesn't suck for long.
thank you guys for being there!!